Carolyn Choate of Nashua, NH is a cancer survivor who has handled her victorious battle with an unusual flair. Just read on:
June 12, 2006
….. When she was diagnosed with aggressive breast cancer three years ago at the age of 45, she was told by some doctors that she might have only three years to live. Immediately, she went into survival mode – finding the best doctors, researching her disease and undergoing aggressive therapy in the form of a radical mastectomy, chemotherapy and radiation – none of which left her feeling or looking pretty.
Besides losing her breast, she lost all her hair and eyebrows. Her nails fell off and her skin was ravaged by the therapies, and because the treatment had affected her tear ducts, salty hot tears fell down her face 24 hours a day. And because she had estrogen-sensitive breast cancer, she had to have a hysterectomy and went through instant menopause – with all hot flashes, dry skin and every symptom that usually occurs to women gradually – all at once.
And while all this was happening, she continued to work, going on air at TV 13 with wigs that – in combination with hot flashes – had her swooning under the hot lights of the studio.
“But I didn’t care about my looks.†Choate said. “All I could think about was staying alive. At one point, I just took off my wig and put on a baseball hat when I went on air. I remember six months into treatment when I thought I was dying, I didn’t want to buy a new pair of shoes, even though I needed them. I figured they would outlast me and it seemed like a waste of money.
“I wasn’t feeling sorry for myself. I was just being practical. That’s one thing about cancer. It puts things in perspective. All of sudden, it doesn’t matter how you look. I was focused on how my daughters and my husband and my gardens would get by without me after I died. I wasn’t thinking about how puffy my eyes looked.â€
Many people who survive cancer feel the day you feel like putting on mascara or care if your earrings match your blouse is a sublime event. It means you’ve moved on from survival to living.
It’s that epiphany that Choate celebrates this week on her signature show “142 Main†which airs on TV 13 (channel 13 on Comcast and 31 on Adelphia) for the first time today at 7 p.m.
She remembers about a year after her diagnosis, just finishing up treatment, the doctor found what looked to be a suspicious mass on her collarbone. She and her doctors were concerned that it was a recurrence of cancer, which at that point, would have most likely meant certain death. But then, the tests came back negative. The mass was benign.
“Until I heard that. I was literally planning my funeral,†Choate said.
Then she felt her entire life shift. She tells her “142 Main†audience – “I was determined not only to survive, but thrive.†She said through medical treatment, lifestyle changes including diet and exercise and a spiritual renaissance – she felt reborn.“I really felt like I was a miracle. That I was alive because I had to make a difference in the world.â€
And after three years of eating carefully, exercising, founding and raising money for the Adult Learning Center Breast Cancer Education Initiative for Low Income and Minority Women, teaching at the foundation and finishing her master’s degree in writing at Rivier College, she felt great. And she was ready to “do something to make my outside match my inside.â€
Choate had her husband make a tape of her, no makeup on, her mastectomy scar in full view, as a way of applying to the ABC television show “Extreme Makeover.â€
“But I never heard back,†she said.
Not one to take no for an answer, Choate decided to create her own makeover show, starring her.
“Who needs Hollywood when you have such great professionals right here in Nashua?†she said.
….. Choate said she did this special show to celebrate her survival, but more to inspire others who have just been diagnosed or who are in the midst of treatment, to know “there’s life after cancer – a good life.â€
She ends the piece by lighting three candles on a bran muffin (her new healthy outlook on life precluded her from using a gooey, fatty cupcake).
She looks straight into the camera, her new veneers sparkling. “If you’ve just been diagnosed with cancer, you’re in my prayers. If I’ve been an inspiration to you, you’ve answered mine.â€