February 3, 2012

Positivity: Lessons from Cancer — Love is divine

Filed under: Positivity — Tom @ 6:00 am

As posted at the Marysville (Missouri) Daily Forum:

My focus on love these days has been catapulted to the highest reaches because of living with a terminal illness. Although I had a chance of cure when I was first diagnosed with cancer, that isn’t the case now, according to the doctors. So I’m going for a miracle and at the very least, stability and control of the lung cancer with good quality of life as I learn to live with it as a chronic disease while I still pray that the pancreas cancer doesn’t come back.

Yes, this is a high price to pay to feel love on a higher level, but never in a million years did I think that cancer could hold riches in the midst of such horror. How could that be?

The devastation and crippling fear that came with diagnosis stopped my world as I knew it. I was brought to my own ground zero in the flash of an eye and what happened? After I held my initial breath of disbelief, I had to exhale to a new life, because what I had known no longer existed. But how could I deal with the monumental task of facing a feared black, cold and lonely unknown; unarmed, without the needed survival skills?

As luck would have it, we are equipped with a “fight or flight response” and it kept my heart pumping, my lungs breathing and my mind churning. And then I turned to God without a moment’s hesitation and in that 180-degree turn, whatever faith I had stored up over the years came right to the surface. And along with that came trust and love. It was instinctual. There was nothing else to do or anyplace else to go. Oh, sure, there were my loved ones, my closest friends, doctors, support groups, books and advice of every kind. But all of that was external and while I cherished it with my whole heart, I still didn’t have the inner comfort and confidence that I desperately needed to keep going,. That had to come from inside and when I dug deep, I found it. …

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